Yearning For Simplicity

A pack of malicious clouds covered the village of Whistler with continuous precipitation on this Tuesday morning of late August. The cool breeze and the leaves prematurely falling from the maple trees almost made us forget about the endless sunny and hot days that made our summer until now.

I opened the door of the local brasserie for business, the old wood cracking with the movement. I chose a reggae playlist, if only to bring a little sunshine on this rainy day.

Through the glass windows, I perceived a mature couple walking towards the entrance.

“Good morning,” I welcomed.

“So,” inquired the husband with a mocking smile while hanging their umbrella, ”has it been raining like this all summer?”

“Actually, we had a gorgeous summer,” I reassured with a laugh.“No drops until today. We desperately needed rain as it started to become dangerously dry.”

I wiped the bar counter and invited them to sit on the red leather stools. “Would you like some coffee to warm you up?”

The couple settled to the bar and agreed to hot beverages.

The clock on the service computer indicated 9am, but the darkness of the outside felt like it was late at night. The flowers surrounding the patio swept to one direction and the dead leaves swirled to the left side of the terrace as a strong wind picked up. We watched the rainfall, sheltered in the deserted yellowed wall bistro.

“So you guys are visiting Whistler for a few days?” I asked the couple.

“We are,” said the man, wiping the last parcels of water on his thick black framed glasses. “Actually, we haven’t been here in 9 years, but we lived here for 17 years, back in 1977.”

“1977!” I repeated with astonishment, “pretty impressive. You were part of the “making of” the town. You have seen it grow from a seed to full tree.”

“We sure did,” affirmed the man while sipping the foam of his cappuccino. “I remember when they put up Red Chair, there was just a few of us on the trails, we were so spoiled. There was only 4 or 5 lifts at that time… and how many today?”

”37.” I answered.

“37 chairs!” exclaimed the man.

“And a lot more people!” I smiled.

“I bet. That’s a reason why we left. Whistler was becoming more of an extravagant resort town rather than the home it has become to us in the recent years.”

“Where did you go after?” I permitted myself to ask.

The man looked at his wife and I could glimpse a timelapse of memories going from eyes to eyes. He explained that they moved to the lower mainland, close to the city, and found jobs there. Her as a teacher and he as a construction worker. And after a couple of years they purchased a home. “That was back in 1998 when houses weren’t in the six figures,” he explained, “but then we realized that we weren’t ready to settle down. So we sold the house and bought a sailboat. We sailed all the way to Mexico and moored there for a couple of years. Some of the best years of our lives.”

Their complicity enlightened the obscurity of the rainy day. They shared stories of their time spent on the Mexican coast, living the life of aliens, making hand made crafts from recycled debris, teaching English to adults and kids, helping building small villages and schools, all in exchange of supplies and food.

“We didn’t have any mortgage to pay, or kids to feed, or job to attend. We were free.” he smiled to his wife.

“But freedom isn’t eternal?” I doubted.

“No it’s not. That’s why after a few years, when the mooring fees drastically increased we decided to sail back to Canada,” he said. “And we were ok with that. We knew we didn’t want to raise our future kids in the city so we sold the boat and found ourselves a beach house on the Sunshine Coast and started a beautiful family.”

“No more sailing?” I dared to ask.

There was something about his smile and the quietness of his wife that made the couple a very mysterious kind. I wanted them to talk about their adventures all day. I didn’t want them to leave.

“At our age now,” responded the man after finishing his last sip of coffee, “sailing in open ocean is really exhausting and expensive. But we did get a smaller sailboat and cruise around the Gulf Islands. Valerie and I opened a small craft store. We don’t make a lot, but plenty to afford what we need.”

That was it: “what we need”. A concept that Whistler has buried long ago under tourism development and big buildings and amenities to satisfy a world based on wants. But that wise gentlemen and his timid wife had all they needed: health, food, shelter, wind, and each other.

Life Inside A Snowglobe

Snowboarding powdered mountains, walking dogs by frozen lakes, snowmobiling the darkest trails, warming up by a fireplace.
♥ Home.

The Meaning of Life of A Footloose

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Since the early age of consciousness awakening, I started to develop a strong interest in philosophy. While some were talking over Barbies or the colors of their marbles, I was questioning myself on life: “Who am I? Who is this person I only see in the mirror, but feel so much inside? Why do I think this way, why do I react like that? What makes me like what I like? What makes me distaste what I dislike? What is the meaning of this life?” All those interrogations were indeed part of the human process and they inevitably were a significant part of my growing years.

During my younger years, I was always the quiet child of the pack, blessed with an active imagination. I would dream of many adventures alongside Huckleberry Finn and Jim, navigating a powerful river aboard a wooden raft.  In a parallel universe I would be Huck, Jim would be my lionheart, the river would be my society, the raft would be my freedom.

My early existentialism has given me a strong sense of purpose. I had big dreams. I had big thirst. I started to build a lifelong bucket list and worked on making my goals a reality.

When I left the comfortable and safe ground of my hometown, I flew high and proud. I wasn’t scared, I had so much to live and accomplish! I moved from the East Coast to the West Coast of the country, a backpack with a teenage life on my shoulders, carrying the little English that I knew and left for my first big adventure. I then got bitten by the travel bug. 

Studying Cinema at University was, for me, money and time consuming. Travels on the other hand, became the best form of education. The most fulfilling lessons I’ve learnt are from the experiences I gained while travelling and from the people I met along the road: a 5- foot tall guide in Nepal taught me strength and compassion; a praying monk in Tibet in a temple at the foothills of the Himalayas taught me hope; kids playing in the slums of India have taught me in the way of wisdom; a little boy in a jungle of Thailand taught me simplicity and pure happiness; a hard working BICI taxi guide in Cuba taught me not to worry because in the end, everything will turn out okay. ”No matter what is going on around you, just hold on and be strong. Smile again, because you’re alive and you can”.

Some might think I’m irrational to be in my late 20’s and not having a successful recognized career, a fixed home and a family with munchkins. Some might think I’m a foolish bum for travelling around and coming back broke, filling my pockets working at some of the most beautiful places in the world, and doing it all over again.  But those things that I gain from those unique experiences are worth a life of gold. I am already rich.

‘Travels are the only thing you buy that make you richer”.

‘’Work to live, not live to work’’.

So what is it in life that I am searching for? I already know what I want: to be happy everyday. As long as I nurture my dreams, accomplish my goals, cultivate compassion… As long as live less in the past or the future and live more in the present (it is not about the pursuit of happiness: it is about being happy today. While we focus so much on working on our future happiness we forget how happy this present moment really is)… As long as I can open my heart with love, be grateful for what I have and keep myself surrounded by inspiring people, I know I will achieve. 

So maybe we shouldn’t focus too much on searching for that one meaning. Perhaps everything that we own, in our hearts and in our souls are really all what matter.

Maybe it’s not always about the meaning of life, but a life full of meanings.

”It is physically and psychologically healthy for a human being to have a strong sense of purpose. The state of mind you have when you’re absorbed in the accomplishment of a purpose is called “flow,” which is an engaged, pleasant state of focus. Those who have learned to develop a sense of purpose and who have learned to become engrossed in the achievement of purposes are the most likely to be happy and healthy. This has been shown in scientific studies and in everyday observations. Happy people are purposeful people because the most reliable self-created source of happiness is taking action along a strongly-held purpose”.-Albert Einstein

Promise Me We Will Always Be Wild

Promise me we will always be wild,
Running barefoot in the dirt,
Wind messing our hair,
Sun freckling our skin.
That we will free our inner savage,
And embrace our beautiful flaws and blemishes.

Promise me we will always be bold,
Living lively, fiercely, and colourfully.
That we will smile often and be silly.
That we will dare to escape the societal mold,
And float everywhere but mainstream.
That we will always be courageous enough
To listen to our heart and live the life we always imagined.

Promise me we will always be spontaneous,
Avoiding schedules that make us rush,
Breaking routine that makes time fly.
That we will never be trapped in familiarity and comfort,
Becoming creatures of habits living a boringly predictable life.
Because life is much more interesting when we experience the unexpected.

Promise me we will always be authentic,
Revealing our unlimited self in all our rawness and realness.
That we will always live a uniquely crafted life,
Choosing experiences over things,
Finding the positive in the negative,
Discovering beauty in what people dismiss.

Promise me we will always be vulnerable,
Daring to take off our mask and emotionally expose ourselves.
Because it takes courage to be imperfect,
To let go of who we think we should be
And to become who we really are.
There is a stunning beauty in vulnerability.

Promise me we will always be kind,
With an open mind and a compassionate heart.
That we will always cherish unity and interconnectedness of all life.
Everyone has a story,
And everyone has something unique and beautiful to give.

Promise me we will always be adventurous.
That we will break ground into new experiences and seek novelty.
Because adventures make us come alive.
After all, life is made to be an adventure.

Promise me we will always honour our fears,
Embracing the feeling of the unknown.
Because if there are no fears, there is no adventure.
And really, life is much more adventurous
The moment you add uncertainty and fear to it.

Promise me we will always love.
That we will forgive and let go of things.
Because we know we make mistakes too.
Life is much more beautiful where there is love.

Promise me we will always wander to places we’ve never been, near and far.
That we will get lost often in beautiful places
So we don’t forget who we are.

Promise me we will always chase our wildest dreams with eyes wide open.
That we will never stop believing in our potential
And never question our capabilities.
Because we are here once and what we do matters.
So let’s live the life of our dreams!

Promise me we will always be wild,
Jumping feet first into the world,
Adventures messing our routines,
Experiences freckling our memories.
That we will free our wilderlust,
And embrace our beautiful mess.
Promise me we will always inspire others
To fully live their one wild life,
So we never become extinct.

Capucine ♡

The Blues of a White Day

 

The mountain opens today. The most important day of the year in Whistler. A day expected by all, where skis and snowboards are tuned up, where playlists are created, where kids are geared up for months, in shape, eager and more than ready to play. Crazy passionnates camp at the base of the hill before the day light breaks and the tail of the line grows like Pinocchio’s nose as the sun rises over the virgin mountains.

As of me, I am standing at the end of the line. Miles away on a piece of earth detached from home. I opened my curtains early this morning only to realize that I was so far away. It hurts. I feel homesick again. This special day of the year where everybody gathers together and share the newborn particles of winter. There’s no reason to miss it. Nothing can get in the way. You wake up early and do it. And I can’t let go of the fact that I put distance in the way of such a day. I hate the easy availability of information on Facebook that shows me all these comments and pictures of what I miss. I hate missing out on things and this one is by far the hardest to swallow. Call me warped mind, call me overly analytical, call me nostalgic, call me whatever you want, but the reality is that I suffer the distance and I can’t let go.

My pain probably goes beyond missing out on opening day. It spreads over missing my friends, missing my life of the past. I haven’t quite made this current place home. I am still uncertain of my mission on this piece of sand, even though there were reasons why I left. Adaptation is a long process and this branch of the tree hasn’t blossomed yet.

I feel the blues today, but I need to stay connected with my current reality and look at the beauties around me. I will make it through this storm and will find refuge in the present moment that I am in. I will open my curtains again and look outside. It’ll not be falling snow and there won’t be any mountains, but there’ll be a blue sea and a shiny sun ready for me to embrace.

Have fun Whistlerites, I am jealous like hell but hey, it is actually a nice day outside. So wherever you are, have a good one and enjoy every second of it!

Thank you Foster the People. This song was for today: Waste

Self-Portrait

Note: I found this old piece I wrote on a scratch paper when I was 19. I thought it would fit well in this blog.

I was born from my mom, a Caucasian lady from the early 50’s. She truly lived the 70’s, the hipped, the love, the zen mode. She got a lot of life on her shoulder though. That’s from where she taught me the real experiences of life. She mostly taught me that the beauty is in the eye of the holder…

I was born from a dad, a certain man who found refuge in our country from a war that wasn’t his. He left a place he called home, running from bombs and guns, leaving family behind. He came here with injustice in his blood, that pushed him away from me and my mom, too much problems I guess,  maybe it was for the best.

I have a brother, we’re from the same woman. I couldn’t see him that much. I was born when he was a bum, then he left for new adventures and trotted the globe. I would look at him as my hero, my mentor. Once a year, if I would be lucky, I would see him coming from an exciting country. He would make me dream about the world, and gave me that thing in your heart that makes you want to know the Whole Wide World.

So I grew up alone with my mom and lots of dogs. My mom was a down-to-earth person. All she wanted was to give me the best of everything. We never got money really. But what is it about money anyway? What more in life do you need, then true values and love from your lady? She taught me to appreciate, to respect, to be honest… She taught me to open my heart, to listen to what people have to say, to share opinions… She taught me to be myself, no matter what… She taught me to always stay beautiful, in the inside… She taught me that life is the most beautiful thing alive, and so appreciate everything that I have…

My first question when I came into this world was: Me, who am I really? It’s not my name, or my age, or where I’m from that really makes who I am. So what is it all about this ME?

Maybe it’s more about what I think, what I believe, what I like and I don’t like…

And what about what I believe? I believe that each human kind is equal. We all have feelings, emotions, different passions and opinions. We all have something to say and something to share. All opinions are good. We just need better arguments to prove our point. I believe that if everyone would respect and listen to what others have to say, maybe we’ll give our world a little more chance to stay…

I also believe that publicity and money push the ”American dream” too far in our society. We don’t need to look perfect, what’s perfect anyway? A Cleopatra, a Marilyn Monroe, La Jocombe? Or just the innocence of a rich princess like Britney? And what is it about that insignificant reality TV? Are we really at the point of considering our lives too boring so we’re excited to watch other people’s impertinent and crappy life? And what about money? Are we really going to be happier with big house chalet in the mountains? Having a sailing boat so we can travel the world? Have enough money so we can enjoy all the craziness in life? Well… maybe… maybe I’d like all those things, I admit. But maybe I can want it so much that I will accomplished enough so I can get myself a little piece of happiness somehow, somewhere…

Some people say we might be doctors, real estates agents, functionaries… Maybe we don’t all need a career to be fully complete. Maybe some of us just need job, where we punch in the morning, catch our paycheck and then go home to the ones we love. Does life really have to be complicated? Maybe we want to experience the outdoors of our life and share new adventures and cozy moments with people that are precious to us.

I believe in love. I think being able to open its heart for someone is the most incredible feeling in the world. I believe in butterflies. I love butterflies! I think that if you got the power to feel every little beat of your heart and your soul, I think you got a real connection with life.  Love isn’t just a four-letter word. It means opening, sharing, trusting, understanding, caring, loving… It’s not a promise to love to death, it’s not a commitment, it’s not about marriage… It’s about loving each other. It is the YOU and the ME connected by a deep feeling that makes ONE. Does true love really exists? Is there someone in this world that would be our perfect fit? I don’t know. But what I know, is when you find someone that makes you laugh, smile, dream… you need to fight for it, maybe that will be this thing in life that would be worth fighting for…

So come to that, what is it that we really want in life? Money? Love? Career? I believe that being happy, just happy every day of your life… that’s probably what I would like… To wake up each and every morning with a smile, for the rest of my life… To wake up to a life that I like, that is mine, full of achievements and completed goals. As long as you are happy with who you are, what you have, and what surrounds you, I think you’re living it up.

So I don’t know what I want to be… I’m thinking about it right now, I am a little confused, a little lost. I want to achieve big goals, project big dreams. I guess I will keep my imagination going and we’ll see where it’ll take me. Maybe I’ll end up living in a perfect paradise that I could call mine. A deserted island far away from politics, bar-bar ideas and war. Maybe the sand will be white, the water turquoise and no richness, no poverty, only people with big hearts and big smiles.  We’ll see what happens… everything is possible… as long as I believe. xo